I’m from North Carolina in U.S. and ended up moving to Hawaii. My roommate who was from Chicago and an old friend of his had invited him to go to Thailand and they asked me if I wanted to go. At the time I didn’t even know where Thailand was at, but I said "hell yea . . . I’ll go." So we went and had an absolute blast. As soon we got back, we were planning our next trip.
So, I went back to Thailand several time over the course of a couple of years when I was living in Hawaii. So I decided to move back to North Carolina so I could save more money to be able to spend more time in Thailand and that worked out great for me. I ended up staying in the states for 6 months and living in Thailand for 6 months, sometimes more.
One day I was on the computer and seen a picture of a girl from Bangkok and thought "damn she’s hot". So I done some digging around and found her email address. I sent her an email and added her to my Hotmail list and that was the end of it.
I continued to work and save money and went back to Thailand for another 6 month stay. I stayed my 6 months and never heard from "her". Then, 2 days after I got back from my trip. I was online and she came online and sent me message. By this time I had erased her from my list. Then I realized it was her. I was shocked and happy at the same time. So, we where chatting and it was going great for both of us. We chatted for several hours and decided that we would talk again the next night, and we did. We ended up talking online every night. Then we started called each other on the phone. This went on for almost 6 months until I arrived in Bangkok on Nov. 11, 2004.
As soon has I arrived at the airport, it started. I had just spent 27 hours on an airplane and all I wanted to do was to go to the apartment and take a shower. But NOOOO, she want to stay at the airport and eat, cause she was hungry. This was the first sign of things (I don’t see coming til it was to late) to come. So, after arguing with her for ever, she agreed to go back to the apartment and wait to eat later. Once we got their, she forgot about how hungry she was .
The first month "almost" great. We would go out at night and come home and do "our thing" . It was pretty good. We would still argue over dumb shit. She would get mad over the dumbest stuff. How I would walk, eat, sit, talk ... etc. everything. I think she was trying to change me to be someone I’m not and I wasn’t having it, at all. I think she wanted me to be FAKE just like her and her friends were.
They ‘re the type of people to pretend to have money and know famous Thai people. They would hangout with the rich ass farang’s who thought their shit didn’t stink. She wanted me to be more like them and not be myself. I’m a small town guy and don’t care what people think.
Then, after about 2 months of being together......it happened. She was pregnant. Then everything changed. Will almost....we still argued over her dumb shit. After we found out she was pregnant. Things did get a lot better. On a scale of (1 to 10) I would say we were an( 8), before we was a (3).
So, every things going good. By this time it’s May ‘05 and I have to go back home. I get back home, I’m working , we’re talking almost every day. She’s taking good care of herself. The baby is due around the end of August, beginning of September. So I decide to come back to Thailand in the first week in August. So I can be there a month before and a month after the baby was born.
We done the visa thing Every things going like things should be going.
Move forward to January ‘06. Her and the baby just spent 17hrs on a nonstop flight from Bangkok to New York City. They’re flight arrived 5 hrs before my flight did. So they had to wait on me. I finally get to the airport and meet up with them. Guess what? She is so tired and all she wants to do is sleep. I look at her with a smile and say "now you understand what I was talking about, don’t you?" she said "yes, I do now....I’m sorry about before". We go to the hotel. They sleep all day, all night. We all catch our flight the next day back to North Carolina.
We get back, first couple months was really good. We were doing the whole "family thing". Then it slowly got worse. By now it’s around November ‘06. She’s missing home, her family is missing her and the baby. So we decided that they would go back to Thailand after Christmas. They leave in January ‘07.
They’ re Bangkok. I’m sending her money left and right. She’s spending it left and right. This goes on for a month and a half . I finally cut her off. I tell her" I’m broke, I’m not getting much work and you going to have to be tight with the money". She gets better with spending money after that......TO BE CONTINUED.....
คนไม่มีแฟน "Kon Mai Me Faen"
ในชีวิตเคยมีคนผ่านมา แต่ว่าเขาเข้ามาแค่ผ่านไปnai chee wit ker-ee me kon paan ma dtae wa kao kao ma kae paan baiI've had people come into my life, but they've always just come and gone.
หัวใจนี้ไม่มีใครhua jai nee mai me kraiThere's no one in my heart now.
ไม่ว่ารักฉัน มีให้กับใครmai wa ruk chun me hai gup kraiNo matter how much of my love I give to someone.
บทสุดท้ายก็ลงแบบเดิมbot soot tai gor long baep dermWhat happens is always the same as before
คือช้ำใจกลับมาทุกครั้งkeu cham jai glup ma took krungI always end up just being hurt.
ฉันเหมือนคนโชคร้าย ที่โดนสาปไว้ ให้พบแต่ผิดหวังchun muean kon chok rai tee don saap wai hai pop dtae pit wungI must be so unlucky, it's like I've been cursed to always end up disappointed when I meet someone.
ขอเป็นเธอได้ไหม ช่วยปลดคำสาปร้าย...คำนั้น ช่วยฉันให้เจอรักเสียทีkor ben ter dai mai chuay blot kam saap rai... kam nunchuay chun hai jer ruk sia teePlease let it be you who will releast me from this curse, I'm desperate to find love.
อยากโดนเป็นเจ้าของ อยากมีคนจับจองyaak don ben jao kong yaak me kon jup jongI want to be someone's, I want to have someone be mine.
แม้เธอได้ครอบครอง เจ้าของใจดวงนี้mae ter dai krop krong jao kong jai duang neeEven to have someone possess this heart of mine.
จะคอยให้ความรัก จะดูแลอย่างดีja koi hai kwarm ruk ja doo lae yaang deeI will keep on giving my love, I will take care of you well.
ที่เธอทำให้ฉันไม่ต้องทน เป็นคนนี้tee ter tam hai chun mai dtong ton ben kon neeIf you can stop me having to endure being someone like this.
คนไม่มีแฟนkon mai me faenA man without a girlfriend.
(Interlude)
อาจจะเคยเสียใจ มามากมาย แต่ว่าฉันนั้น ยังไม่ถอดใจart ja ker-ee sia jai ma maak mai dtae wa chun nun yung mai tort jaiMaybe I've been very unhappy in the past, but I don't think I did anything wrong.
พร้อมจะรัก ไม่กลัวช้ำprom ja ruk mai glua chamI'm ready to love and not scared of being hurt again.
ก็เพราะฉันมั่นใจในสิ่งนี้ สิ่งที่ฉันพูดไป กับสิ่ง ที่ฉันทำgor prow chun mun jai nai sing nee sing tee chun poot baigup sing tee chun tam Because I'm confident in the things I say and the things I do.
จริงใจทุกครั้ง...แต่jing jai took krung....dtaethey are always sincere...but
ขอเป็นเธอได้ไหม ช่วยปลดคำสาปร้าย...คำนั้น ช่วยฉันให้เจอรักเสียทีkor ben ter dai mai chuay blot kam saap rai....kam nunchuay chun hai jer ruk sia teePlease let it be you who will releast me from this curse, I'm desperate to find love.
